sounds like maybe you need to take an overnite trip to the closest town with a GH arcade. Get yourself a cheap motel near the ABS . . find a local bar where you can loosen up with your fav drink . . then go check it out. It's such a total rush when you finally give in. There's no need to worry bout expectations at a gh arcade either. It's ALL up to you. I hope you at least give it one whole-hearted try before you give up on the idea. If you don't you'll always wonder . . . what if? ? And like - I think it was Sonny said he could kicked himself for waiting so long to try and found out he really loved it.
refresh my memory a little here. You've been to gh arcades and have been a suckee - but - still not a sucker? ? OR . . . you haven't done either? ? In either scenario - what do you think keeps you from doing - - if you really really want to as indicated in your posts? ? I'm just Curious . . . and I'm a good listener too.